Jesus wants Me........

A husband and wife getting by in life.  A love for Jesus. A call to be light to children who were in one way or another fatherless and alone.  Alone. A word they both felt in the past and could easily relate with due to circumstances beyond control.  The desire to try in their imperfection.  An attempt to love into the eyes of one unknown to them.  The bank account never poured out an abundance to give and be comfortable.  A desire to trust and in faith love without the guarantee of being loved back. The house was small. Surrendering what was had, and not fully knowing what would be provided in the future. Faith. A willingness to face the unplanned and unexpected.

The door opened and in she came, quiet, looking through the house not a word, an old muffin stuck to her fingers like it had been there for days, frail, and in need of a bath.  Words? No. Conversation? No.  A blank stare and that coat with a hood.  It didn't come off unless we gave instruction to take it off.  Head down always.  The hood was up and surrounded her head as  it offered security. Her life was enclosed in that hood.  Time was the only answer. They say time heals. We tend to want things done now or never.

Time took that quiet little soul and allowed her to blossom into a child.  Children are so very intelligent and full of understanding.  In time she saw love, she learned loved, and she grew to understand that no matter how hard thing would get they were not going to give up on her.  The past is not forgotten and the memories are still present.  She understands hunger, neglect, rejection, abandonment,abuse.  She gets it all and she is still so young. It seems very unfair.

After five years of love and nurturing, bible stories, kisses, food, and being dressed properly, the shell has unpeeled in a mighty way.  She understands she has been adopted into a permanent family.  She knows she is loved by God..........................Most importantly she "sees" an example of Christ in her home and she smiles as she looks up at me and says

"I know........ JESUS WANTS ME."